lost

I want to talk about those days we wake up feeling lost, right down to the marrow of our bones.   I want to talk about those days when the lost feeling doesn’t shift, despite all of our best intentions and practices and life. I want to talk about feeling lost without the need for antidotes…

do you remember?

do you remember the night we saw forever stretched out before us, bare and pure, like we didn’t know time could rip us apart, unceremoniously and all too suddenly? i do. do you remember how love looked without the claw marks we made as we fought to keep hold of a future already in our…

Who am I?

Who am I? I’m someone who feels deeply, who in any given moment feels and holds multiple conflicting, contrasting, complimentary and complex emotions, sensations, experiences, all at once and separately in individual layers, together and apart. I’m someone who believes that we, all of us, as unique and connected and complex human beings, have an…

other days

Some days I can’t find the words to tell you all the ways I am barely breathing. Some days I don’t have words to explain the panic attack that forced me to remain indoors and to shut out the world for it was the only option I had to regain my breath and remember how…

a heart and a hand

I don’t have a lot, but I have a heart and a hand, and you can hold onto them for as long as you need. I don’t have a lot, but I am rooted firmly in the ground and I grow and I grow, even when I am falling back to the earth. I fall…

I hope you know, love

I hope that in the moment this world stops turning you will know with unflinching certainty that I loved you, that I always loved you and that my life has been richer for you being in it. As you make your way through the days ahead I hope you find love to be more the…

the anxiety that holds

i’m wondering where this life starts and where it ends. is it somewhere between the inhale of a sharp breath and the wilting of a leaf, or drowning in exhales while the sun gives rise to a new day? it sometimes feels like the world will come to a crashing end if i don’t solve…