Grief comes in as though from nowhere. And for a second I forget that I have felt this close to death before. And then I remember. It floods my senses so it is all I know, like it is all I feel I have ever known.
Some give gentle advice to let it go, to cover it up, to move on.
I cannot. And today I do not want to. I need to allow myself to feel this heavy ache, as for today I know this is the only way I can be close to you.